So I just got off the phone with a friend who works at the organisation that I recently wrote about. He was asking for details about what exactly happened because his higher-ups, who apparently came across that post, felt bad after reading it. We didn't have a long conversation but I believe I was able to convey the reason why I was so frustrated. What I said wasn't far from what I had written anyway, so I will not repeat it here.
I was told that he, and presumably they, understood my frustration. That's good. And I was left with the impression that changes are going to be made on the way some things are communicated— to avoid confusion. That's also good.
So where do we go from here? Meh.
People who know me well enough know that I put a premium on trust— and gaining my trust is not an easy thing. That's because when I trust some one, naturally, I put them high up on my list of priority people to interact with for most things. It doesn't matter if they're a taxi driver, an e-cigarette vendor, a handyman, a Shawarma stall, or a bank; if I trust them, I will go out of my way to acquire their services or buy stuff from them even when there are “easier choices”.
It follows that if somebody whom I trust breaks that trust, I feel really bad about it. I'm pretty sure that in this sense, I'm as normal as everybody else. But I guess, what sets me apart is that, like a few others, I own a blog and I tend to use it when I feel bad about things— which is still normal, right?
I was thus surprised when my friend, after having said that he understood my frustration asked me why I reacted the way I did. I'm at a loss here. How exactly is one supposed to react when somebody whom they trusted broke that trust? It seems to me that perhaps, my friend fell short of saying something like, “can you tone-down what you wrote” or “can you not share what you wrote on Facebook” or “can you not discuss it any more with your other friends”.
Of course, as a matter of courtesy, I could do that— even if it means sacrificing a bit of my expressive freedom to tell my story, in my own space on the World Wide Web. Perhaps when my head is cooler, when we're finally able to move the website and begin to actually develop it.
We shall see.
But on an unrelated note: my current web host is taking a long time in giving me that invoice. I wonder what's up with them. Hummm...