Blurred Vision

There's a reason why I would rather not drink Bioflu when I think I've come down with something. I has to do with a side-effect that seems to swell the muscles around my eyes. It's a weird feeling. On the outside, I do seem to have an over supply of tears but on the inside, my eyes feel so dry. That is why my eyes have been so red the whole day.

I did have to take a couple of doses last night, though, because I was running a high fever and I couldn't afford to not come to work today. I had already called in sick twice in the last two weeks and calling in sick again today simply wouldn't do. Of course, I've learned to look forward to spending Fridays at the office as well.

It's a really weird feeling that I have now because I don't feel sick at all, not in the way that one would feel lethargic or nauseated. If anyone asked, I could probably run a few hundred metres at this state— if only I can run with my eyes closed. I really hate it when something's wrong with my eyes. I feel so helpless.

Anyway, it seems the more decent office guitar was already taken home by its owner. Too bad as I was starting to like it more than the other one— the blue one that I had written about earlier, that one that I picked up the other day just so I can say “hello”. I wonder, though, how that translated. I suppose it's one the most harmless things that one can do but not when you've startled the other person to kingdom come.

I beat myself up over the smallest things, don't I? It is what it is. And I'd really have to learn to look more at the good things that I may be doing instead of those that I only perceive to be faults and blunders. No matter what other people think and say.

Today is all but a blur— literally— because my eyes aren't working as they should. But I will take any blurred vision of whom I wanted to see than none at all. Tonight, I will start to sleep, and sleep for as long as I can. Then come back stronger on Monday.

There's still a lot of good things to do. And to see.